This month, (just like Kylie Jenner said) i started to realise things. Okay no seriously, the year has been passing me at a tremendous pace and I'm pretty sure February did not even happen, much less January. I've realised that I'm my own self- living by yourself in a completely different city, surrounded by completely different people with different thoughts, with a different setting and a different bed to go home to.. it was strangely refreshing and not as scary as I thought it would be. Although it did hit me (today actually, a mere 2 days into moving into my own apartment) that I am completely and utterly alone. Not in the way that I cannot talk to anyone, I'm so thankful for the people I have met over the past 6 weeks, but just in the sense that ... there's no one here to look after me anymore. Living in a house with loving, caring parents like mine (which I am so thankful for every day) and then being plunged into the polar opposite of that; not having someone to pick you up, not having someone to come home to , not having someone ask you questions about how your day was over late night coffees.. it hits you sometimes. Don't get me wrong, I love the solidarity. I'm a huge introvert and living by myself is probably the most refreshing and awesome experience ever- i love it- but little things like that hit you sometimes. Mostly, it hit me that I'm by myself in a big city... nevertheless; i enjoy every moment of it. To me, there's nothing more serene than waking up in the morning and conquering things that you want to achieve, doing things that you want to be doing and just... loving life. Although it's hard being away from family, and not having a stable income anymore... I can safely say that this is the first time in my life where I have felt truly content. Content with what's happening around me. Content with my feelings. Content with my relationships with people. Content with my own sense of being. Just.. content. I don't want to say happy, because happiness is subjective. And I am happy too.. but happy and content are two different things. And content is , to me, much more important than being happy. Although happy comes very close.
I told myself four things this year. Firstly- wake up joyful, over the moon that you're alive and breathing. There are so many people out there with disabilities, without limbs, without proper working organs.. I'm so thankful to wake up everyday and walk over to my kitchen and make myself a coffee and then go do the stuff I need to do; please be thankful for the body you have. Secondly- try and do one good deed everyday. Whether it be picking up a piece of rubbish of the side walk, helping a stranger, or a friend, just do something. It feels amazing, trust me. Thirdly- be kind to your parents, always. I am so grateful for everything my parents have provided for me, and still continue to provide for me to this day- no amount of money or praise could repay the things they have done for me. I remember how much anger and frustration I aired out onto my parents in moments of not being in control of my emotions, and I instantly felt horrible after. Respect and love your parents because you never know when you'll talk to them last. And you'll never know how much they give up for you. And how much your happiness makes them happy. Please. And lastly- the things you work for are the things you achieve. getting accepted into design school in one of the worlds top universities for design has been one of my proudest moments thus far- and I plan not to ruin it. My illustration teacher told us a quote which will forever resinance in my head "you dont get what you want, you get what you work for" and I think that is completely true. I promised myself that this year, I will work my absolute hardest to improve myself as a person and as a designer, keep pushing and never give up. I want to work as hard as possible to get to my goal, and nothing will stop me. not even myself.
Stay true to yourself kids, you're the only one you got.
I told myself four things this year. Firstly- wake up joyful, over the moon that you're alive and breathing. There are so many people out there with disabilities, without limbs, without proper working organs.. I'm so thankful to wake up everyday and walk over to my kitchen and make myself a coffee and then go do the stuff I need to do; please be thankful for the body you have. Secondly- try and do one good deed everyday. Whether it be picking up a piece of rubbish of the side walk, helping a stranger, or a friend, just do something. It feels amazing, trust me. Thirdly- be kind to your parents, always. I am so grateful for everything my parents have provided for me, and still continue to provide for me to this day- no amount of money or praise could repay the things they have done for me. I remember how much anger and frustration I aired out onto my parents in moments of not being in control of my emotions, and I instantly felt horrible after. Respect and love your parents because you never know when you'll talk to them last. And you'll never know how much they give up for you. And how much your happiness makes them happy. Please. And lastly- the things you work for are the things you achieve. getting accepted into design school in one of the worlds top universities for design has been one of my proudest moments thus far- and I plan not to ruin it. My illustration teacher told us a quote which will forever resinance in my head "you dont get what you want, you get what you work for" and I think that is completely true. I promised myself that this year, I will work my absolute hardest to improve myself as a person and as a designer, keep pushing and never give up. I want to work as hard as possible to get to my goal, and nothing will stop me. not even myself.
Stay true to yourself kids, you're the only one you got.
Absolutely love the avant garde look a lot of designers are going for this year for the fall/winter season runways. FUCK YES I say. Beautiful, innovative, delicious. If there's anything we can learn from the Japanese apart from how to cook, it's how to design. Designers like Rei Kawakubo and Yohji Yamamoto have been on the forefront of avant garde since what it seems like the dinosaur ages and it pleases me to see them as inspiration fashion wise on an international scale. Love the new direction balenciaga is going into as well (even though I'm really cut at A wang left ), as well as a different take on fur this season. Long gone are the full length fur coats, now replaced with minor fur detailing to add dramatic effect- such as a fur collar, sleeves, even just an overthrow. Adds dimension to the garment and is completely different from anything I've seen before. Also can we pay special mention to Sacai for being so amazing this year??! Didn't know they could make such masterpieces ?? each and every single one of those pieces would've taken forever and they look so damn good. The styling is on point too. ALSO!!! Japanese inspired silhouettes are making a sure comeback and I'm so excited- as that's exactly the direction where I want to take my original designs, and am so pleased to see the traditional Japanese dress honoured and be an image of inspiration for everyone !! not only are the modern designers being praised right now, but traditional Japanese culture is as well and it's amazing. Everything is amazing in fashion right now. I love everything. And Balmain surprised me too- going off from their usual vibrant colour palette and opting for soft, pastel colours (a good change in my opinion)- so thank you for giving us something beautifully refreshing.
Here are some close up details from beautiful designers
I LOVE YOU ALL. it's a beautiful day to be alive. Don't take it for granted.
 








 











































